A Final Word

Hello. I am Jay DeKing, Lisa's lover, caretaker and husband. I have temporarily hijacked her blog (I don't think she would mind) to tell anybody who reads or finds this blog some bad news.

Lisa died peacefully in her sleep on the morning of 20 October 2012. The cause was congestive heart failure. We didn't even know that she had any heart problems, other than a slightly rapid heartbeat and slightly high blood pressure. She had a lot of physical issues but, so far as we knew, her heart wasn't affected.
 At least she was back in her beloved mountains when she died. Next spring we will scatter her ashes off of the Devil's Courthouse.

Lisa was the most unique individual that it has ever been my honor to meet. I am still baffled as to why she would want to be with me, though we did have a few things in common. She was brilliantly intelligent, so we didn't need to "dumb down" our conversations. She was intensely spiritual and took a long spiritual journey before she came to realize that Wicca most closely matched her feelings. She didn't belong to any coven; instead, she was a solitary Wiccan.

And she was 6'3" (183cm) tall. She was my Amazon and I was her Hobbit. I will miss her forever.

OK, I'm here

The other day it popped up into my mind the word Dashboard, I figured out where the word came from pretty quickly. I have these words or phrases come into my mind frequently. Then I began to wonder why they used the word Dashboard for your Blog page. To me that word means the stuff all in front of you in the front seat of the car and that didn't make any sence. There are plenty of ways to make your site all pretty and stuff but nothing that looks like the front of the car. That was about all the thoughts on this subject that day. Well, tonight after taking my first long bath in a tub I felt safe in. Jay helped me wash my hair and I really enjoyed that. He does a great job and a better one too. He and I are developing ESP. I had thought about asking what we're having for dinner and I was going to ask if we had the stuff for Spagetti, but I just rested in my room. After a while I got up to see what he was doing and lo and behold he was making Spagetti! This has been happening more and more often, I think it's cool and now I'm wanting something sweet so maybe I'll be looking to see what I make but the final coincidence which brought me her was I accidentally hit the icon for my blog. So just another illistration of just how weir my life is. I am sooooo happy here in the Chateau Cruso.

I suddenly had to blog!! I just realized that the promise that I had made when I was very young came true. I wanted to be a better mother than my own was cause back then I felt she didn't show any loving things like saying it, and hugs, and saying how proud she was. I was just sitting here and thinking like I usually do and amongst all the thoughts I had this one and it had to be written down somewhere. I AM SUCCESSFUL! All three of my halfway grown children actually call me frequently on the phone to tell me how they're doing and what they've been up to. They also will want to know how I'm doing and I can tell them anything and they don't tell me what I should or should not be doing At least they don't put it to me that way but suggest it. There's the answer! I also had another goal and that was to have a family that wanted to love and hug and hang out together. I even planned on having my first baby it by the time I was 20 so that when she was 20 and I was 40 then we could be like friends and hang out together. I was also thinking how sad it is that we all aren't living close together in my mountain home area but I have to say I am glad we have the technology that has allowed us to remain close. They all love me very much. I can tell. They're not just calling because they should. They're calling to make sure I know that they love me. Being spread out like this makes it harder with Grandma thing. They don't even know me cause they're so far away. Well, it all works out and I am certain that we all create our own reality so somehow we'll all be in touch forever. I am grateful for all to come to me in that future and have always been grateful for all that I have and have had. And that's an AMEN!

Awake Again

Well, here I am not sleeping again. It's 2:30 am. That's been happening a lot of late and it's becoming extremely annoying. I used to take naps during the day easily but since I got off most of the pain meds over the last yr I have not been not been able to sit still because I am trying to deal with the pain and sitting still after a little while gets painful. My mind never stops trying to figure out what to do next. Nothing is the usual choice lately while I had a bad Sinus infection, fell on my knee and spent most of my last couple of months in bed. Otherwise I try to spend as much time as possible with Rocko. He's still my Miracle dog. He always makes me laugh and I love to play sticks and rope with him. I have been training him to walk directly beside me an let me use his body to steady myself should I happen to fall. He's so smart and figures out somehow what I need him for. He actually really saved me from falling down the other day. I started to fall and he immediately jumped under me and I grabbed him and he stood there and let me hold myself up by leaning on his shoulders and hips That's the first time it's happened for real and not just for training. He was amazing! I need him to be at my size wherever I go and now I know he'll be there for me. I'm looking into training him to be my Service Dog. Then I could take him every where I go. Well, it's actually going on 6 am now and I feel a little drowsy. I have to be at the doc's at 11:30 but I think I'm going to call and reschedule since I'm not going to drive all that way drowsy. I think I'm going to let this end here and someday there will be more to come.

Slacker

Well I didn't post a couple of days so I had to slap myself on the hand. lol Not much has happened and I've been laying around a lot because I ran out of my pain meds. I hate that I have to take them at all and have continually said that I will get off them someday. Well I had thought (yeah, I do that sometimes). I cannot lead a productive active life without them. My doctor says that I will always need them. While being down is when I realized that I was laying there because it hurt too much to move. I need the pain pills to have a life.
I got really bummed out this morning. I was cleaning my new dentures and dropped the bottom one and dind't notice till I put them in and looked in the mirror that I had broken the front tooth in half. I can still smile without my bottom teeth showing but today is my doctor's appt. and I was so excited about showing him that I had gotten new teeth. I can still show him but it won't be the same. I called the denture place and have an appt for tomorrow. I sure hope they can fix it. I've only had them a little over a month.
Well, I guess that's it for now. Seems like I had more to say but now I don't remember anything since I'm in so much pain and bummin' about my tooth. C'est la vie.

Well, I didn't write anything yesterday or the day before I think but I'm here now. I put my latest news on my FB page and everyone was happy for me. The thing I was so excited about is that I got out and rode a bicycle with Rocko on a leash at my side. He loved it! He loves to run, I think it's his favorite thing to do. I went around 2 blocks and at one time I was going so fast that Rocko could hardly keep up. He almost wrecked me a couple of times. It wasn't too easy to hold on to his leash and the bike handle at the same time.

The other thing that was great was that I to weigh myself and I only weighed 203 lbs. The last time I weighed myself I was about 216 lbs. I was astounded. I thought that the things I had been eating lately would have put weight on. I got my skinny skinny jeans on and they aren't cutting off my breath like before. My ass looks awesome again.

Politically I have heard just this morning about the government health care bill being unconstitutional. By forcing people to buy medical insurance if they don't have it through work they have to buy it. We are a Capitalist nation and that goes against being forced to buy something if we don't want to. The guy on TV explained that if we had a choice then there would be more competition in the medical field and they would strive to be better. I agree with this. I've always believed competition is the best form of commerce. I got this from watching The Sunday Morning Show on TV. I have watched that show since I was teenager and loved. Now don't get me wrong, I don't believe everything I hear but this morning it seemed the guy knew what he was talking about and there was a Supreme Court Judge had already decided it was unconstitutional. OK, that's it for news and politics. I try not to watch the news. Everybody thinks I'm wrong not to but I get physically ill from all the negative news. I prefer to get my news from my sweetie Jay who is very knowledgeable and up to date about all that's going on. He has to cause he spends a lot of time on the internet reading different stuff and finding out if something is true or not. I love him for that and for helping me to get healthier from all that I have been through in the last 10 years. I'm soooo happy.

Starting again

Well, it has been a long time since I have put anything out here. I don't do New Years Resolutions but I hope to tell more about my life now. I have been with my boyfriend Jay for 2 yrs now but it doesn't seem that long. Anyway it seems that this year is the year starting a new life. I recently got new glasses (thanks to the Lions Club) and new dentures so I have a new smile that I have not had for years. I plan to get a new hair style next. So it seems to me that I am a new person. Jay blogs about everyday occurrences in our lives. I think he talked about our resident Raccoon and probably earlier about our squirrels. There were two regulars for a while and then a smaller one. Jay calls him Stewy because he wasn't big enough to eat so he's have to be put into a stew. Well Rocko and I were out on the back porch and saw three squirrels chasing each other all over my Oak tree that has beautiful giant Staghorn Fern on it. As I looked I could tell that Stewy had gotten bigger. All the Oak trees have been dropping acorns everywhere. We have them all over the front driveway so we pick them up and take them out to our back patio by the fence. We had been putting acorns up on the fence posts for them and then Jay found a little cat dish and he keeps that filled up with acorns so that they don't have to go hunting in the trees. There aren't many left in the trees. Rocko loves them and chases them up the trees. He has almost climbed the tree after them. Jay taught Rocko that they are ok as long as they are in the trees and Rocko watches them very closely just in case they come down. The funny thing is that I think they tease him by coming halfway down the trunk. Being outside in my back yard with my dog and watching all the squirrels and sitting under the trees is my favorite relaxing thing to do.

We recently went over to Orlando area to see Jay's daughter Anna and her husband Taylor. It was the most wonderful thing to happen to Jay and I and we hope to go back soon. Anna let us bring Rocko with us and I totally grateful. I hate to leave him behind for any trip even just a few hours. Since we did get to take him then we were able to stay a second night. Rocko had a great time. Anna loved him and took him out for a run a few times. She and Taylor loved him. The second night when I got up really early I went out to the living room where they were sleeping on the couch and Taylor had moved to the floor. When I went out I saw Rocko practically sitting on his head and Taylor in his sleep was trying to get him off his head. I had to be quiet or I would have laughed out loud. They were so kind to let us have there bed.

I'm sure that Jay has blogged all this in a much better way. I'm new to blogging and not as astute in language as he. All I know at this moment is that I am happier than I have ever been. A new life, a new man, a healthier body and soon I believe we will have all the money we need to do the things we want to do.

Last of all back to my new teeth, I am looking forward to eating all that steak that is in the freezer that we got from Jay's Dad and Velma for Christmas. I can't wait.

OK, this is it, I'm going to try to write more often and maybe even get into making comments about the latest news and politics like Jay does. He's been blogging since 2002 so I've got a lot of catching up to do. I hope I can keep this up and have something interesting to talk about. Today's mantra is "Lovin' Life".