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Well , it's 5:00 am and I am not asleep. I took all meds but too worried, upset and scared. I am needing company at times like this and Jay won't wake up. I love him I am blessed with his love and care and so welcome by the the whole family. I have never experienced this before and it sure feels good to become a part in such a family. I guess I'll continue to gain my feet grow with or without needing Jay. I hate that I need so much physical help as opposed to just want someone to love me.
Jay and I have pretty much been with me 24/7 and doing all the things causes me a lot of pain , in fact he has been very efficient and kept me on track. I know you are waiting for the but. Well there isn't one really per se. I do get frightened that we jumped into the deep end really fast. He gets his own time too. He plays his game on his laptop and reads the news and his comic strip in between doing my laundry, sweeping and mopping the whole house and cooking, He washed the whole kitchen and it too to and after all of that he kisses me before and after he leaves a room. He still reaches over to touoch me when we're close. We bot feel really blessed.